THE RANDOMNESS

2006-07-03T18:00:00.000-07:00

Stalking your kids isn't what makes a good parent. Loving and accepting them for who they are is what makes a good parent.

Monday. Bluh

2006-06-12T12:06:00.000-07:00

Mondays suck.. Tasha stayed the night last night so I didn't go to sleep until about 2:30, then I had to get up at 7:30. I'm a girl who needs her sleep. SERIOUSLY! So I've been pretty much dead today. I came home and took a nap, and tasha just went home because she had a headache. Here I am. Bored again. But the nose is pierced and the hair is blonde... Looks pretty cool. :D

Finally! A pierced nose..

2006-06-10T15:28:00.000-07:00

My uncle Mike is gonna come over and pierce my nose, about freaking time! :D Other good news, I'm almost done w/ driver's ed.. So I'll be getting my restricted soon, but thing is that I won't have a car to drive. Mostly because the jeep I was going to get, is TOTALED. Yep, totaled. You read it right. Daniel the Dipshit was driving me over to my friend Ashley's house and the person who grated the road left a two foot mound of dirt in the middle of the road. Daniel saw a car down the road, tried to move over, hit the dirt mound, it pulled us towards the ditch, he lost control, and the jeep started rolling.. It rolled twice and we landed on my side. The entire back of the jeep was completely smashed in. If I wouldn't have had my seat belt on I would have been F***ED! Luckily no one was hurt. The funny thing about the whole thing is that not 1 minute before we rolled, I said Daniel don't roll the jeep, because he was going a little too fast. And another funny thing is that my last words could have been "Damn it Daniel! F********************ck!" But luckily they weren't my last words.

God must hate me...

2006-05-24T19:58:00.000-07:00

My best friend.. The one person who has always been there for me, who knows me more than anyone, the girl who is MY LIFE!... is moving to Dodge fucking City. Because her mom has some old bf there that she wants to be with. So she's going to pull 2 of her kids out of their high school and away from their friends, to move to a city that smells like cow shit. I hate that woman so much right now. My mom told me not to get so upset because it prolly won't work out and they'll move back. But I don't know. I know that w/ out her I don't feel like living. That girl is my life. Tomorrow is the last day of school and I can't even be happy about it. Damn it. This is bullshit, I get in trouble, get my computer taken away, my bf breaks up w/ me, my best friend is moving. WHAT THE FUCK?! What next? I bet I'll be paralyzed from the neck down next. Why is everything just fucking up so nicely? Is it because I say God damn it too much? I'm sorry.

Almost over...

2006-05-22T19:02:00.000-07:00

I officially have 3 1/2 days of school left in my freshman year... Wow. What a year... There's been a lot of crazy times, most of them good. I went to graduation on sunday, it was soooooooooooooooo sad, but I was extremely happy for all my friends that graduated. I'll still be able to talk to them all the time tho. Well I lettered in Forensics, Drama, and Debate.. Wow I feel so accomplished.. Haha its like I've actually done something productive... I'm debating whether or not to go to school tomorrow. I have 2 normal classes in the morning and then I have 2 classes that I am exempt from finals in. Nothing really fun to do here.. Hmm i dunno.

WE ROCK!

2006-05-15T17:43:00.000-07:00

Daniel just pierced my friends McKaela and Tasha's lips! It looks AWESOME.. Tasha's went right through, no problems what so ever... But McKaela the Mexican has biggggggggggggg lips, so hers bled and we couldn't push the ring through all the way.. It all worked out in the end tho! Except that my uncle Mike stood us up, he was supposed to be doing the piercing after he got off work.. But its almost 8 o'clock and he still hasn't shown. So I called him and told him we were doing it by ourselves.. If he does show tho, he IS piercing my nose.. My mum has been griping about how i don't have the tiny little sparkly ring, but i'm not in the mood to wait so i'm just gonna use a regular ear ring.. It'll look so great... :D well tomorrow is the last day of school for seniors... :-( so sad... I will miss them so freaking MUCH! Oh well... They'll be happy to go to college... I wish I could go w/ them! 3 more yrs..

A much better day

2006-05-11T18:15:00.000-07:00

Today was an ENTIRELY better day. I was actually in a pretty good mood! I played Armagetron (which is a game w/ little rocket things that you race in a square grid) all day.. It's a guy dominated game, but I still managed to swipe some wins.... Hahaha. Who rocks. And in between playing games I actually did homework. HOLY CRAP! I.... did homework.. amazing isn't it? And as for the Zach issue, we're talking more.. I have lunch with him tomorrow, and it seems like each day it gets less and less weird.. It takes a while to go back from bf&gf to just friends. Tomorrow is Friday.. Which is actually kind of sad because all my senior friends are leaving... But they can't wait to be out of high school, and I can't blame them.. I'm counting down the days until school is out... that would be 2 weeks exactly.. :D I can't FREAKING WAIT!

Short and sweet

2006-05-09T17:02:00.000-07:00

He broke up with me over the phone.. How GAY is that.. He told me that he didn't love me and we should just be friends, that may be true.... But I'm not stupid, I know he's getting back with his ex. I've heard from several people that he was over there friday, saturday, and sunday. I had 2 1/2 hours of sleep on sunday.. That was fun to go to school with, it was even more fun to see him in the hall.. But I figured if we were supposed to be friends, I'd still sit at his table at lunch, like I always do. I didn't sit beside him tho, I sat across from him. And I put on my happiest looking face and talked and joked with every one else. Finally he started to joke around with me. Ha. Ha. Ha. He talked to me first. I win. So that might mean that he feels a little bad about breaking up with me in the shittiest way possible. I still feel like crap, but I might survive. Not that anyone will read this, or care.

Yeya!

2006-05-03T15:44:00.000-07:00

Well good news, I'm getting my nose pierced! I'm not sure whether mom is going to make me get it done professionally or if I can get my Uncle Mike to do it. He's pierced like 500 people, so I don't think he can be much different than a professional. Professionals just get paid. :D So yea, I'm excited. I've always wanted one, and now I finally get it! So that's about it.

Its only wednesday..

2006-04-26T14:35:00.000-07:00

It feels like this week should be over by now! Argggggg. Well I'll be baby-sitting in Wichita this weekend, yea, that means money.. I am pathetically broke, so broke in fact that i take dimes off the water fountains. I am saving up money to hopefully buy myself a plane ticket to Florida this summer to see my aunt Kyann and uncle Chad. My dad is convinced that no one is going to Florida, but then again, what does he know? I need this freaking week to be over...... The only high-light is that the new Godsmack cd came out yesterday. yeya! Not like I'll be able to buy it because I am broke, but I'll be able to burn a copy.

My weekend

2006-04-23T16:12:00.000-07:00

What I had planned for this weekend and what really happend this weekend, was very different. What I had planned was that a bunch of my friends and I would go to the movies and see Silent Hill. But that morning at school, about 1/2 my friends said that they were going to church camp. CHURCH CAMP! my friends don't GO to church! But I wasn't about to go to the movies alone, so Tasha and I decided to go to this freaking church camp. The moment I walked in that door I knew that I was out of place.. Tasha and I walked up wearing all black and decked out in jewelry, and the two men at the front door where we had to give our registation forms had THE most disgusted looks on their faces. Oh yea. I didn't really care too much though, we went to an hour of chapel and it wasn't so bad. But then they decided to have lights out at 11 o-freaking-clock! Yea, OK. Well me and my posse weren't really buying that, so we stayed up until 4 screwing around. So that was fun, but the next morning was TORTURE! I knew that if I went to a bible camp that I would have to go to some kind of sermon thing and listen to some crap, but I had no idea it would be that bad. Saturday we were scheduled for 5 hours of chapel. For me and my ADD posse, that doesn't work. So we got bored and left to my friend Mckaela's and stayed the night there. Her grandmother is the craziest woman ever! (maybe not ever) but she's practically deaf, and she's soooooooooo senile! Mckaela told her that Tasha and I were vegitarians and we laughed the whole night from just messing w/ her grandma. The woman is pretty great tho, she LOVES AC/DC, alice cooper, ozzy osbourne... wow. she kills me! :D well I have a forensics tournament tomorrow. Oh yay. I just CAN'T wait. This will be the last one tho, and then I letter! Yeya! I already lettered in debate, and I almost have a 4.0 (i have a RETARDED teacher that magically lost a few of my papers, and then found them on his desk a week later) so if i keep this up my resume for college will look pretty good. God why can't college come sooner.

Easter

2006-04-16T17:54:00.000-07:00

Today was Easter and I hope everyone had a great 3 day weekend! I had an awesome weekend, I went to my friend Lindsey's birthday party and then spent the day w/ my family today. If you've known me a while, you might know our first foster child, Nathan (Bob). Well he's had some problems w/ his mom so he's back ( no one knows how long). Since I'm pretty into ignoring people lately, this won't bother me too much unless that is he goes out of his way to piss me off. Then I'll just go move in with Tasha. Speaking of the Tasha, it was her 15th birthday today! yeya, if you want to wish her a happy birthday, this is her address... thashenberger@students.usd309.k12.ks.us in your subject line, put "happy birthday from a random person". If enough people e-mail her she'll be laughing her ass and trying to figure out how everyone got her address. Well toodles to the weekend, I am so not ready for monday.

Wednesday

2006-04-12T16:56:00.000-07:00

Today I went to Ellsworth for a music competition, and it really wasn't too bad. We did well, and I had a lot of fun walking all over Ellsworth (small town tho). Tomorrow I only have to go to school for a 1/2 day, and then the next day is Good Friday! Yeya.. Friday I'm going to a friend's birthday party, and then Sunday is Easter (and Tasha's b-day). So that's the plan for the weekend... Prom is in 2 weeks, and Jordan isn't going because his girlfriend dumped him. Bummer. But I'm not going either because Zach doesn't have the money, it'll probably be lame anyway tho. Have a good weekend! (I'll be too busy to post)

Monday

2006-04-10T13:35:00.000-07:00

Well thank God today is over... I had a monstrous test in math, a portfolio to put together, a book report that was due, and biology papers that I didn't do. So it was pretty crazy, I got it all done tho.. But as always at the last moment.. Oh well. Jordan is at a track meet throwing shot put, and I'm at my friend's house. The day is practically over, yea............ Wednesday I have to go to a freaking band competition... That's gonna suck really bad, but I do get out of school for a while. woot.

Wednesday... 4/5/6

2006-04-05T14:35:00.000-07:00

Just incase you haven't already been told, today at 1:02:03 something happened that will ONLY happen once. The time went as follows... 1:02:03 4/5/6... cool huh? So there's your fun fact of the day, (for just this day). Well I had a Forensics tournament last Thursday, and my partner and I got 7th out of about 40 other teams in IDA (improvised duet acting) and we awarded a medal. But then our glory was smashed, trashed, defiled, and pissed on when we went to League Forensics tournament in Lindsborg on monday. We took only 6 people, and out of those 6 people NO ONE made it to finals. We sucked bad. And since we were so insanely bored having been there for 5 1/2 hours, we decided we'd play a little prank. *teehee. My buddy Felix said he needed to go get his bag from the suburban and he got Mr. O's keys, then our entire forensics team went with him out to the parking lot. So what do we do? We put the suburban in neutral, I get behind the wheel, and we pushed that SOB clear across the parking lot! It was the funniest damn thing ever because there was at least 10 old people watching us and they just started laughing! Then one of the other guys on my team went over and asked this old guy if he saw what we did.. The old guy laughed and gave him 2 thumbs up! When it was time to leave, Mr. O came out and started walking toward the place where the suburban used to be, and he was like WTF? It was sooooo hard to keep a straight face. But everyone played it off as a joke like he had early on set dementia.. LOL. He knew it was us and we wound up laughing our asses off for the entire ride home.. Good times. :D So today wasn't all too interesting tho.. Except our Nazi Principal not letting us have a CYSTIC FIBROSIS FUND RAISING DANCE! He is so gay, he didn't let us have a Snowball either because of the "inappropriate dancing". Maybe he just shouldn't watch. He couldn't understand that this damn dance is for a charity that we PROMISED at the beginning of the year to give $200 to. He also couldn't understand that he wouldn't have to do anything because we already have sponsors, we already have someone to dj, and it will be outside! What an idiot. Well my computer is almost dead, later.

The weekend

2006-04-02T15:31:00.000-07:00

This weekend Tasha and I stayed the night at my friend Ashley's and had a bunch of fun. No sleep though. So that's why I slept like 15 hours last night... I love sleep! I need to get to babysitting more, cuz I'm BROKE. Yep, I have to scrape up some cash so I can buy a plane ticket to Florida this summer. I'm going to be visiting my Aunt Kyann and Uncle Chad in Jacksonville, right by the beach! I even have a new swimming suit to wear to the beach... well I gotta phone call, later!

Why why why

2006-03-28T13:41:00.000-08:00

I completely believe that if you constantly bitch about how much you hate school, then school is gonna suck for you. But if you're like me and you just try to have as much fun as humanly possible, you're all set! The actual school aspect of school doens't really bother me too much, I get all of my homework done, its just usually at the last mintue. The part that bothers me is the drama and the complete assholes they let into school. Like this little std ridden/ bipolar/ whore that they continually let still go to school at NHS even though she's been suspended too many times to count. I can't stand her! I was about to freaking bash her skull into the lockers when she decided she wanted to start talking about Tasha.. AHHH I just don't get why this girl doesn't get the picture and move somewhere far far far away from here... Drama Drama Drama. Guy drama is even worse tho... I think I should take a vacation for a week then come back and see if anything has magically fixed itself..

The play

2006-03-25T13:53:00.000-08:00

I am on the thursday night crew (there are 2 different crews) for the play.. So on thursday night, we performed and we did awesome! it was really good, we skipped a couple of meaningless lines but it was good non the less.. Friday night.. not so much. I had to do the sound, so I was sitting backstage reading the script and clicking on a sound effect every time a doorbell or a phone ring came. Everything was going really good, until one of the guys said a line that came 2 F***ING PAGES OF DIALOGUE later! the crew just went along and didn't notice so they were saying the lines that came 2 pages later too.. I am back stage FREAKING OUT! 3 of the characters had to make an exit, so when they came back I was like look you guys skipped a LOT! and then what I did was ring the doorbell and get them back on track... ughhhhhhh, yes I saved the day. But it was so stressful! And after that when i thought everything would go back to normal, my foot started to itch. I had a computer on my lap because I was clicking on the sound effect icons and then projecting them through a mic, so when I bent over to itch my foot my stomach accidentally hit the space bar.. and a door bell ring comes out of nowhere. so I of course say, S*** F*** G** D*** IT! Luckily though, I had the mic off so no one heard my tourett's outbreak! thank God... well tonight I think I'm gonna pretend like I have a life and go to the movies.

TOMORROW, AND THEN ITS OVER! YEAAAAAA

2006-03-22T12:18:00.000-08:00

Yes, after tomorrow at 7:30 the play is officially over! And about fricking time too, I am so tired of it. A comedy that isn't even funny, isn't that stupid? Its' called "You Can't Be Too Careful". I'll be more careful next year and decide to never go out for another play directed by Sir Mr. Oborny. He drives me insane, and is probably the worst director in existence. His new name is Atilla The Hun. I think its quite fitting actually... :D well I'm still at school, and the only reason i'm able to post at all is because i'm hiding out in the library where I can get a different internet service (not the school's)... oh pirating is fun.

More freaking play practice.

2006-03-20T19:03:00.000-08:00

I just got back from a 3 hour dress rehearsal, and it was anything but fun. Our play director thinks that this is "his play" and he is "very dissapointed" that we don't have everything PERFECT. So ya, this is the monotony that my life has come to. All I have to talk about is this stupid play (which is going on thurs + fri) what will I do when it is over? Probably nothing. I will have absolutely nothing to talk about because my life is a complete bore. Oh well. I have a 3 page paper (which is due tomorrow) that I haven't even started on. I also have biology worksheets, and some math assignments that I've rejected. But I don't have the will power to care about them anymore.... I do have a 4.0 though, so I seem to be doing something right. (that is getting everything done LAST minute)

Spring Break... not so much a break

2006-03-14T15:18:00.000-08:00

Well my play director is freaking HITLER! He's making us come in during OUR spring break for 5 hours, tuesday, wednesday, and thursday! ahhhhhhhhhhhhh i pretty much have my lines memorized, but i still have to freaking come in during SPRING BREAK! i could be having so much fun... but no i have to practice for a freaking retarded play... I went to Kansas City to see my grandma Dee last weekend, she is acting pretty loopy. She can't keep track of the time of day and she's just generally acting weird.. But she will get better within a couple of months. Right now my mom is over at grandma's house cleaning up collosal amounts or mice and rat crap, along with their dead bodies.. Oh yea, since the old trailer beside her house was torn down, there was a mass migration of mice and rats. And they all decided to make grandma's house their home! how sweet. They're all about dead by now, Mike put out bricks upon bricks of poison. so now its just the body collection. ick! I have a pot of noodles cooking, so I gotta go, later!

So here is the new layout...

2006-03-01T15:18:00.000-08:00

Since there has been problems w/ reading my blog for ages now, I finally got around to changing the layout. So now I hope that everyone will be able to read what ever useless crap I have to say! Well my mom had to leave AGAIN to Kansas City monday night so she could be with grandma for her surgery. Grandma came out of the surgery fine and mom should be home tomorrow, yea! Since last time she was gone it was so hard to cook a huge meal, we decided that we are to fend for ourselves. Haha so I the boys have been eating peanut butter in jelly all week! ha not really, but they could have been... Monday I went to Pratt for an Academic Olympics thing where I took 3 ridiculously hard tests, but hey I got out of school. I also got out of class today for a Music Festival in Hoisington (2 hrs away). I had to get up at 5 IN THE MORNING! It was pretty brutal... But the band played really well, and I got out of school until 4th hour. woot. Friday I have a drama workshop in Wichita so once again I get out of school! haha, then I get out of school on Monday for LifeSmarts. It is state competition so I'm pretty much going insane.. If we get first then we get to go to Philadelphia! On top of all this stuff I still have a freaking play that I have to do.. We go on in 3 weeks and most of us don't have out lines memorized, AHH! well, I've got to go and get some stuff done (laundry, homework, play lines, studying for lifesmarts), so 'bye!

The Update

2006-02-27T19:17:00.000-08:00

I haven't posted in....let's see, 11 days! So here's the scoop... Last Friday there wasn't school so me and 2 of my friends went shopping and raided this thrift store.. haha I got a paratrooper vest that is AWESOME! Truly, I am wearing it to school tomorrow.. :D Now... After that I spent ALL DAY saturday hosting a forensics tournament, which wasn't too bad because I did a lot of flirting.. Then Tasha and I went to my grandma Dee's house to clean, bluh. Grandma was a lot of fun though, I love that hippie... :D We drove to church the next morning.. To make a long story short, the pastor FLIPPED out and was screaming and crying and told us "These little girls will stand before Satan, and he will say your souls are not saved!". It was ABSOLUTELY crazy! Just cause we are decked out in black she labeled us as "lost souls that will never make it to heaven." soooooo twisted. But here yee here, I have yet another insane story to tell. It involve me locking the damn keys in the car. ARG. I had been driving the whole day and grandma had always taken the keys out and put them in her pocket once I had parked, but once we went to Wal-Mart she didn't take the keys out. And never did I. So me, Tasha, and grandma walk to the car and find it locked. So Tasha and I go to the automotives department to ask if they have a slim jim or at least some freaking thing to unlock the car. The stupid bimbo behind the counter just says no we don't do that sort of thing, so I yell "This is crap, I'm calling the mob." At this point me and Tasha are cursing the damn Wal-Mart and everything else cause its illegal to have a slim-jim. Well grandma says she can get it unlocked if she has a wire hanger, so I go back in the store to break a $20 for 99 cent wire coat hangers... So then I bitch aloud some more.. Then we are back at the car, about to give up on the unlocking the car, when some guy with the same car asks us if we need any help. YEAH! So he fiddles with hanger (while Tasha and I are openly protesting Wal-Mart) and within 5 minutes he gets it open. From now on I will not go anywhere with a freaking slim jim attached to my leg.

Mum will be returning!

2006-02-16T18:59:00.000-08:00

Yes, mum will be back on Saturday! I can't wait, it's been horrible around here w/ out her... Grandma has to go through another surgery next week though, to remove more of the tumor... So ya that blows. Well my Lifesmarts team might be doomed because our seniors don't like to show up for practice! AHHHHHH! I've sent out a good deal of death threats to them, so maybe they'll take a hint and show up for class. My grades are finally shifting back to their rightful spots at A's, after a couple of my douche bag teachers losing my crap and not grading things... Oh! New guy at school and he's SUPER HOT! Like a surfer, looks like he probably got kicked off of the O.C. hahaha... This weekend is going to be interesting, my friend Tasha and I will be baby-sitting 4-6 kids in Wichita. Ya. It'll be interesting all right. :D But it's for a good cause, we will be getting paid! hahaha that's all for now darlings...

I would like my mother back please....

2006-02-15T16:33:00.000-08:00

This is the third day that mom has been away in Kansas City w/ Grandma Dee. Grandma is doing good from what I hear, I hope she recovers well. Mom should be back by Sunday or Monday, or as soon as Grandma is able to leave the hospital. It has been HELL without her! I have cooked supper for the last 3 days and I have to make sure the kids don't kill each other... I hate this. And now I've just succeeded in ruining a pot of chicken and noodles.... Great.

SECOND PLACE!!!

2006-02-08T19:26:00.000-08:00

WOO-HOO! My LifeSmarts team and I took second place at regionals! LifeSmarts is a competition where the players are asked a bunch of trivia questions, and then they answer after they've buzzed in. We are going to State, yea! And if we take 1st at state, then we go on to nationals in PHILADELPHIA! So that means I've got a lot of studying in my future.... oh well. My team mates are pretty cool, they're all smart asses though... But what do you expect they're 17 and 18 year old guys (except Devon--15). I am definitely going to be ready for state, which is a month away. Well that's about all I've got to share, 'bye! :D

Good news and bad news...

2006-02-01T18:26:00.000-08:00

Well the good news is that Jordan came back to school today! Yea! His face is really swollen up though, and the poor guy has his jaw wired shut... He has to eat food through a straw, and he won't get it off for 5 weeks... eek. I just got back from play practice today and I freaking hate the play we're doing! It's a short play that was made back in like the 50's and its sooooooooo stupid. On top of that our director is mental. Each one of us has to share the same character with another person, and one performs (for the real thing) one night, and the other does the second night. THEN we don't ever run through the whole play at once, we do one half one day and the other half the next day... It's crazy... Well Grandma Dee and my mom left for Kansas City today so that grandma could get her brain tumor removed... I'm not allowing myself to think of anything going wrong w/ the surgery, but I'm really stressed out. Argggggg. Mom should be back monday.... Friday is homecoming night, and our theme is "pretty in pink" so that's going to be interesting. Then on Saturday I've got a forensics tournament in sterling at 7 in the morning! And of course, Sunday is Super Bowl sunday! Hurray for the Steelers! Well that's all for today... :D

Saturday

2006-01-28T12:49:00.000-08:00

The thing that makes me happiest in life is family, friends, and concerts. Family and friends can really piss you off (but you still love them), but concerts just make me feel like everything is gonna be ok. I had SO MUCH FUN! Nothing is better than being in a crowd of 2000 people just like you and wanting to rock their freaking hearts out! I'm pretty much thinking screw everything else, rocking makes me happy, so maybe i'll pursue a career in that instead of acting (acting is still cool though). I met the coolest people, i got a pick that a guitarist from Shinedown actually played with, and I got an autographed cd from the opening band! Well I gotta go visit my grandma Dee, but i'll fill you in on the rest later, bye!

THE DAY FROM HELL

2006-01-26T19:30:00.000-08:00

I get to school this morning and head over to my corner of the cafeteria and all of my friends are huddled all around each other crying and with the most saddening expressions on their faces... I ask what's going on and I get positively heart-breaking news.. My ex-boyfriend, Jordan, (who is still a good friend) is in the hospital. He was at the skate park the night before and some guy came up and told Jordan to give him his skateboard (he's got a nice board) and so naturally Jordan wasn't gonna give it up. Then this guy snatches Jordan's board and starts beating him over the head with the board. Jordan has a broken jaw, broken nose, swollen tongue, and a severe concussion. Over a f***ing skateboard that some violent f*** wanted. My friends and I have done nothing but worry the entire day about how he's doing. He's in Wichita at the moment getting surgery on his jaw, and we don't know when he's coming back... On top of that, my grandma Dee has to get surgery next week to have her 3rd brain tumor removed, which is completely wrapped around her optic nerve and a great portion of her brain. I am fed up with stress, and I hope everything works out... cause if it doesn't I don't know what the hell I'm gonna do. The concert is tomorrow so hopefully I can cheer up and still have a good time, have a good night.

Oh so sleepy.... *yawn

2006-01-25T21:14:00.000-08:00

I'm really tired tonight, so I'm gonna get everyone up to date as quick and painless as I possibly can. First off, I am officially on the Life Smarts team, Life Smarts is like scholar's bowl just not as nerdy. I am really excited! There are 5 people on our team, Devon(fr), Tyler(jr), Brett(sr), Zac(sr), Me(fr), and Hannah(soph). If we make it past the state competition then we will be going to Phillidelphia April 22-25th! WOOHOO! Forensics is something else that I'm tied up in, our first tournament is in 2 weeks and I've still got to pick out a poem to do. What else.... the play of course ( i still need to memorize my lines) and the CONCERT! That's pretty much all I'm concerned about... hehehe. 2 DAYS! well i am TIRED so i'm going to sleep... g'night!

The weekend

2006-01-22T21:07:00.000-08:00

I really didn't know exactly how exhausting being a mother was until this weekend. My friend Tasha and I babysat Bradley, Cheyenne, Spencer (3), and Ross (7 or 8) this weekend. HOLY CRAP! All these kids wanted to do was play, and they didn't sleep until about 11. Spencer was the most hyper-active child I've met in my entire life! So, I am applauding any mother who didn't pump their kids with Ny-Quil to make them calm down and shut-up, cause that's what i wanted to do! The Shinedown/Seether concert is on Friday! Yea! I can't wait, it's going to be so much fun! That's probably all I'll think for the next 5 days... Well I'm tired, so I'll talk later. 'bye

Wow I'm posting and its only been 5 days!

2006-01-19T18:14:00.000-08:00

Yea that's pretty much a record for me! Sorry for anyone that pops in to see what's up, it's probably annoying to just see a post from freaking october every time you visit. Since we got wireless internet a couple of weeks ago I'll be able to get on a whole lot more. I don't really think I'm that interesting, ya know I've just got normal teen-age crap and that's about it. Last weekend my brother had a bunch of friends over for a bonfire/camp in the backyard, it was a lot of fun! At first Jordan wasn't gonna let me or Daniel come hang out because of his whole "you guys are siblings" thing, but since I'm so freaking cool all of his friends told Jordan to let me stay. Peer pressure-1 and Jordan-0! We ended up playing hide and go seek in the woods until 4:30, so it was great. No school--hahaha. Well I am in a short play called "You can't be too careful", and I play the sarcastic lady. Imagine that! I should be memorizing lines, but I can always do that later. I'm such a proctrastinater. Well there's just a week to go until I am going to the Shinedown/Seether concert! HELL YA!!!! I've seemed to have inheireted this addiction to going to concerts from Aunt Julie, but I never have as much fun as I do at a concert. Concerts are so great I tend to daydream about them in class. Expecially math, ugh. I've been going around to everyone I know and convincing them that the math book is the Necronomycron (book of evil) and that the room is really the ninth circle of hell. Which reminds me that I should be doing my homework, so catch ya later!

Here's for you Ju

2006-01-14T11:42:00.000-08:00

To keep my aunt happy, I'll be back on my blog more often than once every 4 months. Hmmmmm. I never really have a whole lot to talk about though. I'm just living the normal teen-age hell! Yea hell. My best friend of 5 years, Kayla, has been dating my brother Daniel. Well as if that's not sick and raunchy enough, they have to spend every moment together. AND they are constantly making in front of me, no matter how many times I try to explain that I don't want to see that. Yep, they're self-absorbed assholes. I'm ok with they're relationship in all, just not with them ignoring me and blaming me for everything. Look at this email that Kayla sent me----

you just wont fix the problems we have and you have the opertunity to tell mark that daniel isn't lying when Mark is yelling at him for such things and you know enough about me to tell him yes we do babysit all the time we tell him we are and you just do nothing about it. I sware to you if mark makes daniel leave and it is for somethng you could of disproved I will NEVER speek to you again

I didn't know a freaking thing about this argument. Forgive me for not eavesdropping! She, the-one-that-ditches-her-best-friend-of-5-years-for-her-friends-brother, is threatening not to talk to me. Wow, she pisses me off. I called her and she was going all "throw me a pity-party". I told her I had nothing to do w/ any of this crap and that she can't just play the guilty-by-association card on me. I swear she's f***ing mental sometimes. Anyway, I still love her lying-ass. So we've agreed that she's gonna shut-up and stop being psycho and we'll spend one day a week together. Hopefully we can still make this work. Doesn't this just make you miss being a teen? ha

No, I'm not dead

2005-10-19T16:23:00.000-07:00

Hey people! I'm still here, I just haven't been able to post because my school blocked blogger.com. Well in the last month, I've gotten used to high school, been buried in homework, dealing with ridiculous drama, and I've gone to my first debate tournament. I'm so stressed out I can't see straight...Halloween is coming up and I can't freaking wait. I don't know what I'm going to do but it better be fun! I don't have too much to say today, but have a better day than I have had!

Hey peeps!

2005-09-29T16:34:00.000-07:00

Well this week has been filled with homework... Oh so much homework... Nothing exciting to report today other than my first debate tournament on Saturday. Yep, me and Kayla have to be at the school 7am sharp to drive to Sterling. Ugh... I hate waking up early... I'm pretty excited though! My cousin Amanda's birthday is tomorrow so I'll have to go attend that little get together... Well crap! I've only just realized that means I can't go to the football game! Damnit... Well I'm gonna go, I got play practice! And then homework. woohoo...

*Oh so much fun...

2005-09-25T10:20:00.000-07:00

This weekend was the freaking 6th weekend in a row that I spent with my friend Tasha (That's her name, not the name of my alterego). I went to the movies with her, her sister Amber, Amber's boyfriend Levi, and Daniel, to go see Corpse Bride. I was cool! Very morbid, and funny! After that we cruised around screaming at innocent pedestrians...Oh it was funny! Just imagine 5 tall people (minus Amber, who is the world's tallest leprechaun) crammed into a little bitty car, screaming "I love you and your sweet nipples", "You complete me." , and pretty much any retarded random thing that popped into our heads... Well I'm at Tasha's right now just chillin and being glad I'm not at home...:-) Well I'm going to go, love much!

Thursday the 22nd

2005-09-22T16:45:00.000-07:00

Today started out with Jordan and I speeding down a dirt road to pick up Kayla and make a mad dash to get to school on time. It was pure insanity... I was up by 6:45 and by 7:30 I was ready to go and wondering why Jordan wasn't yelling at me to leave. So, I walk into his room and that lazy piece of crap is sleeping! Its 7:45. We start school at 8:10! So that gave us 25 minutes for him to get ready, go to Kayla's, and go to school. Brilliant planning right? We actually made it to school on time though(the bell rang 5 seconds after I got into class). Homecoming is tomorrow! It's gonna be a lot of fun... I'm in band so I'll be marching in the game and in the parade. Band is so much fun. Our new teacher is young and funny, and not crazy like Bramel was. There is also a dance right after the game, which, no duh, I'm going to. I've been allowed to drive my car to go run errands for my mom and dad, which is a lot of fun even if its just driving through Nickerson. I got my grades yesterday, GPA... 3.8! Now tell me thats not awesome... You just try it. Mom left for Rock Springs this morning. That means dad and I have to cook... God help us! Well I outta go, bye!

Yea I know it's been a while...

2005-09-20T16:40:00.000-07:00

19 days without a post... I really suck! I've been uber busy though, so much homework I can't see straight, football games, the fair,and my friends. I would post more, but I can't post from school because blogger.com is blocked on the server! Now what kind of crap is that? Anyway, here's the briefing on whats been happening... I went to the fair 3x last week, and holy crap each night I could barely summon the energy to crawl into bed. I also went and saw The Exorcism of Emily Rose, it was so good! I loved it! Of course there is the homework... Oh the homework...*groan. I have never had to do this much homework in my life! Somehow I manage to get all of my assignments done though (usually at the last minute). On top of that I'm in Brigadoon, the school musical. I went to rehearsal last night, to find one of my buddies being hooked up to an oxygen tank with paramedics surrounding him! It was sooo scary... Apparently before I had gotten there, Derick had jumped off of the stage and landed flat footed, he started to get dizzy and couldn't breathe, so they had him lay on the floor while they called for help. The paramedics got there and hooked him up to oxygen, then started to ask him questions. He answered all of the questions right except when he was asked who the president was, he said George Washington... Finally he felt well enough to start trying to walk, and it turned out he was ok after all. My guess is that it when he landed, it gave him a jolt, and he went into shock. But he's ok now... *thanks god at this moment. I have to march in the homecoming parade and game on friday, and I am so not prepared... *sighs Oh well... I should probably get to work on my laundry now, I'll post again tomorrow! Bye

Thursday

2005-09-01T14:42:00.000-07:00

Don't you just hate it when you sleep in too late and then you have to rush through your whole morning? Well that is exactly what happened to me this morning. I slept right through the hour of 6 oclock, and at 7 with 30 minutes to leave I finally woke up! I went to my first hour, Spanish, and got to listen to EVERYTHING there is to know about Cuba. Which in a sense was good because then we didn't have any homework. In seminar(my gifted class) we made a short documentary on how to make school better for gifted kids (we tend to get held back from our full potential a lot). Gifted is a lot of fun sometimes, we have the most smart-ass group of people you will ever met! Never a dull moment in there....Can't say the same about my other classes. Debate is an awesome class too, we did a lot of research today on the Patriot Act, pretextual prosecution, racial profiling, and immigration things. I have the coolest debate coach ever! That makes the class that much better. My first tournament will probably next month, I'm sooo excited! On a more grim note, has anyone seen the aftermath of hurricane Katrina? It is sooooo sad. There is like thousands of people dead everywhere, people wading across the water, and standing on top of buildings trying to be rescued. My world geography teacher told me that New Orleans may never recover.
Personally I think he is wrong, New Orleans will recover but it will take a while, you can't rebuild a city overnight. I feel so bad for the people trapped in New Orleans and in Biluxi. The whole Gulf coast is just a disaster. I think I'll talk with the principal tomorrow about putting up a fundraiser for the hurricane relief effort. Still on the subject of terrible things, a train carrying 300 gallons of ethanol derailed in South Hutch! Most of the town was evacuated, but everyone is back home now, I think. On to a happy subject... Labor Day weekend! Yea! I'm going to be in Lawrence for a family cookout with the Thornton clan. It's going to be sooooo much fun! I have babbled on long enough, I should really get some homework done!

~The Update~

2005-08-30T21:13:00.000-07:00

Sorry about the short post Friday, I was kind of in a hurry! After the game that night, my friends Tasha and Makayla both stayed the night at my place. It was a lot of fun, we laughed the whole night until 2:30 in the morning, knowing that we would have to get up at 7:30 to leave. Morning came unfortunately and we had to get our tired butts up off the couch. Damn the luck! We dropped my friends off at their houses, and then mom and I went to Walmart to get a present for my cousin's baby shower. While we were walking back to the car, we run into Aunt Mona and Cheyenne. One thing lead to another and we had one extra added to the road trippin crew!(Cheyenne, duh!)We get to Oklahoma and have a really good time at the baby shower. It was great to see Jaque again, I don't see her much anymore. We stayed the night at my grandparents house and left for Kansas again in the morning. I hate leaving their house... I love it at any of my grandparents house, just Grandma Rene is a lot farther away from my family than the others! Monday I went to a Debate Club meeting at school, and the jobs of the members were to clean out the auditorioum of all the props and costumes used in previous years. Now that was some hard work! Halfway throught the meeting, Mr. Obourney (Drama and Debate teacher ) told us that if we were interested in playing in the musical, we could go audition with Mrs. McMichael(choir teacher). I'm a very impulsive person, which can sometimes be good or bad. This time I decided to go for it, and it turned out to be a good decision! I think Kayla and I are definetly going to get a part, Mrs. McMichael loved us! We find out tomorrow what parts we get. I can't wait! I'm in Debate, Drama Club, and a Musical, so I'm quite busy right now. Most people wouldn't expect a bunch of hard core rockers to be in plays, but there is like 8 of us out of 14! I've just gotten done with my homework, so I'm going to chill out for a while and then go to bed. Night!

I have a laptop!

2005-08-26T18:26:00.000-07:00

We finally got our laptops today and about damn time! The freshman's laptops are the seniors from last year's, so they aren't the greatest. But they are better than nothing! I'm sitting outside of the new gym right now waiting to go to the football game to start. I've been passing the time messing around with my friends and putting music on my laptop. This will be awesome going to Oklahoma and being entertained the whole time! G2G!!! Bye

Thursday

2005-08-25T15:25:00.000-07:00

Todays weather....Sucked balls! It was muggy, muddy, and hot. And our crazy band teacher made us march outside in the muggy muddy hottness! Arg....... I had my hair all strainghtened and perfect that morning just to get it rained on and make it turn curly! My next class was Math....Damn math... I have so much homework to do this weekend. I have 2 normal assignments and one problem of the week. Problems of the weeks are uber stupid because we have a sheet that we have to fill out that goes with it. We have to right what info we've gotten, state the problem, what info we can use to solve the problem, how you could go about solving the problem, restate the problem in a paragraph form, and then give your answer in a paragraph form. We basically have to say the same thing 5 times! I have a full weekend to do it though, so no worries. I get my laptop tomorrow, YEA!!!! About freaking time too... I'll need something to entertain me while going to Oklahoma. My cousin Jaque is having a baby in September, so her grandma is throwing her a baby shower in Oklahoma. Can't wait to go! I really should get to my homework, later!

Tuesdays...

2005-08-23T20:19:00.000-07:00

Waking up after you've taken a sleeping pill is extremely hard, expecially if its only been 6 hours since you popped it in your mouth in the first place. You're supposed to have at least 8 hours dedicated to sleep before you have to become active again if you are taking sleeping pills. Whoops! I was extremely groggy yesterday morning and did something very stupid... I didn't eat or drink a cup of cofee. I was tired and hungry through most of the day, but I got home and took a 2 1/2 hour power nap. I really should never take naps during the day, that makes it even MORE difficult to get to sleep. Last night midnight was approaching and I couldn't get sleep, so I trekked down the stairs to find me a sleeping pill. Of course I couldn't find them, so I was left to fall asleep on my own, which needless to say wasn't easy. Today I had 3 of my core classes (english,math,biology) , which makes it a harder day than tomorrow's classes. It really doesn't matter if the classes are easy or hard, I always wind up having fun, I just have to make it myself! What would have been incredibly fun tonight would be going to the Disturbed concert! I am soooooo depressed I can't go..... Mom says Im too young. The last time I went to a concert was 8 months ago, which would make me 8 months older now, its so stupid! I could be crowdsurfing,moshing, singing my heart out, having the time of my life! But no...........I can never be happy.

Damn insomnia....

2005-08-22T00:28:00.000-07:00

Its past 12 0-FREAKING-clock and I'm still not asleep! And I have to get up at 6:30 tomorrow for school! It was like this last year, I would lay down to go to sleep at like 10:00 and 2:30 would roll around and I would still be awake! Sometimes I would take a 1/2 sleeping pill, but it never did anything for me. I'm debating whether or not to take a sleeping pill, f*** up my REM cycle, or stay up till I'm finally tired and get about 3 hours of sleep. Ughhhhhhh!!!!! What's a girl to do? I'm somewhat tired, but its my mind thats keeping me up, my stupid restless mind.... My thoughts tend to dwell on a certain guy, he's a complete ass sometimes but I like him a LOT, if he would just get the hell out of my head! Don't think I'm up all night thinking about him every night, I'm not obsessed. I just occasionally think about him... I have to get up for school in freaking 6 hours...DAMNIT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can hear footsteps above me, so I don't think I'm the only one awake. I'll pop a sleeping pill and head off to bed.... Sweet dreams

Friday!

2005-08-19T16:09:00.000-07:00

Happy Friday everyone! School was a lot more fun today, we didn't have to listen to the teachers drone on about how they want their classrooms to run. Today I did a very brave thing.... I wore a mini skirt in a school well known for depantsing! Yes it was a gamble but I didn't get depantsed. Hey it was a cute skirt! I was in the library with my english class getting books, and of course the book shelves are way low, when an upperclassmen told me he'd give me 5 seconds before all of the freshman guys would walk behind me to check out my backside when I would bend down to get a book. And of course! All of the guys come trek behind me, I shoot a glare, they get the picture and leave. I made sure to thank the junior guy too, Michael Rich, for the heads-up. I do have math homework, but its pretty simple so I can't complain. We have a dance tonight at 7 I think. I'll probably show, can't miss a chance to meet new people! In other news, my cousin Jessica(Angel's daughter) might be leaving her foster parent's house and staying at Angel's for the weekend! That is if she gets off of work. She ran into some trouble a while back and got put in a foster home, but since she's been there she's really pulled herself together. I can't wait to see her! Aaron and Cheyenne's birthday's are this weekend, so everyone wish them a great day! I am off to take a shower, and get ready for the dance! I'll tell how it went tomorrow!

I SURVIVED!!!!

2005-08-18T17:41:00.000-07:00

My first day of high school is officially over! I just have to get through 179 more days....... It was a lot of fun though! Seeing all of my friends after three months of separation was awesome! The school is soooooooo big, all of the freshman were completely lost and asking the upperclassmen where they were supposed to go. I think the older kids liked playing the I-know-everything-there-is-to-know-about-this-school. I barely made it to all of my classes on time it took me soo long to figure out which room to go to.... The teachers aren't too bad, but the first day of school is always soooooooo boring. Each of your 8 teachers tells you the same exact thing all day long, what they expect from you, what materials to bring, behavior consequences, same old same old. Extremely repetitive! The teahcers even knew they were telling you the same thing, so they didn't even try to get any one to pay attention! High school is going to be a blast, there is a Welcome Back dance tomorrow that I think I'll probably go to, I need to make myself known! Today, god smiled upon me..... He showed me the hottest guys to ever walk the face of the world! Oh it was great!!! Hot hot hot hot hot.......I should be doing homework right now. Can you believe that? Homework on the first day! I plan to keep my grades up this year and not be soo much of a slacker. Later!

Today's recap

2005-08-17T21:38:00.000-07:00

This morning I was awoken by a very-happy-to-see-me Kayla, who is ever so excited to get out of that hellhole of a house and be away from her family for 8 hours. We got ready and made the walk to the High School for freshman orientation where I met all my old friends and new teachers. It was extremely long and dull......Just blah blah blah blah blah . Then the assitant principal Mr. Anderson, got up on the stand, opened his mouth, and sounded just like Kip from Napolean Dynamite! If you've ever watched the movie you'd know that it is this kind of high, very soft voice, that is soooo nerdy! I just knew he was going to say something along the lines of "You're just jealous becuase I've been chatting online with hot babes alllllll day." I couldn't stop laughing! After that we got a tour around the school and met the student council members, they seem pretty cool. They took us to our freshman lockers, and they are 6inches wide I shit you not! 6foot tall and 6inches wide! Sophmore and Junior lockers are the same as ours, and Senior lockers are ridiculously huge....figures! Tomorrow I'll be starting high school.....I'm going to do my best to not go through high school bitching and complaning, I'm going to make an effort to have the time of my life! WooooooooHooooooo! I experienced for the first time in a long time Jordan's concern for me. He told me that I'm not allowed to talk to any of the upperclass guys, becuase he has had to listen to them talk about how hot I am every since he started football and I showed up at the games. Now he dreads them having everyday contact with me! Isn't that sweet? He wants to protect me from the big scary juniors and seniors! He of course can't tell me who I can and can't talk to, but I thought it was nice he was looking out for me. I just dyed my hair back to dark brown(it was strawberry blonde before) so I can look my best tomorrow. I should get my beuaty sleep too. This diva is going to knock'em dead! G'night!

Whats up....

2005-08-16T18:25:00.000-07:00

Last night Emilee stayed the night and we basically just watched movies and chilled out. But it was cool because she's fun to be around, I don't care how much of a dork she is! She showed me her new contacts, she says they really bug her! The doctor told her that she had really small eyes so it would feel a little uncomfortable to have them in.She left with Grandma Bree this morning at about 11oclock. I didn't do too much today, just hung out in my room, played on the computer, and played my guitar. If I didn't mention this already, when I was staying with my Grandma Rene I played her guitar alot, so as we were leaving to go Kansas she gave it to me! Its a beauty, plays really nice too! If I ever figure it out I'll post a picture of it sometime. You learn something new every day, today I learned how to play the intro to Smells Like Teen Spirit (Nirvana)! Its so much fun! I go to freshman orientation tomorrow morning, and I might wear my Kurt Cobain shirt. Or might wear it on the 1st day of school. I hate picking the 1st day of school outfit, so hard! I'm finally going to be in high school! 3 more grades of guys to choose from! Well I need to start supper! Bye!

I do feel like I'm talking to myself here.....

2005-08-15T11:47:00.000-07:00

Emilee's 12th birthday party was Saturday, Happy birthday Em! We had cake and ice cream, and then she opened her present, which was a matching shirt and hat from us. All of her other presents were given to her early, Grandma Ruth gave her a really pretty ring with her birthstone in it(I think) and Grandma Bree gave her a Purity ring(she wont have sex until she's married). Grandma has been badgering me for years to take the oath and get a Purity ring, but I've told her multiple times that its not something I really care about. I'll have sex when I love someone, love them enough that I would take the chance of having a child by them. And I don't want a child anytime soon! She'll still never give it up though.... On to a different subject, school starts in 3 days! Its a very deep isssue with me, I don't know whether I should be glad that this crappy summer is over, or depressed that I have to go back to school. I do get to see my friends though, thats reason enough! I miss them soooooo much! Well I am off to the kitchen to see if there is any food in this house! Later

Mornings suck

2005-08-09T11:00:00.000-07:00

I have never been a morning person and I doubt I ever will be. For me, getting up early just isn't something I do very well. But I have to go to my stupid band practices from 8-10:30 everyday until Friday this week. Yesterday I got up and drove to school (by myself!yea!) and got to see all of my friends and the new band teacher, she looks so much like my mother its frightening...medium height, short dark brown hair, blue eyes, high cheek bones. It's freaky! I just hope I don't call her mom during class! After practice I went to Steve's and watched Cheyenne, we swam and watched tv, its so great being lazy! I stayed the night and we rented Geuss Who and Constantine, Constantine has Keanu Reeves in it and he plays a demon slayer, sounds like Angel doesn't it? Well I'm absolutely mental, and I stayed up until 1am and woke up at 7. Needless to say it wasn't fun... This is how out of it I was, I sat down on Aunt Mona's couch and looked at the wall across the room and there was this shadow, I swear it was the shadow of a man and it turned and looked at looked at me! Then I realized that it was really the shadow of the chair... It was still really freaky! Well right now I am getting ready to go to the ice skating rink with Amanda, Cheyenne, and Jim(Aunt Linda's rich boyfriend) Love much.

I guess I'll post again....

2005-08-07T17:22:00.000-07:00

Well for the last month I have totally neglected to update my blog, sorry! So I'll try to fill you in the best I can. I was losing my mind at home because the family was just too craz, so I went and stayed with my grandparents in Oklahoma for almost 2 weeks. It was great! No crazy people, airconditioning, peace and quiet, and an overall relaxing time. It was just what I needed... I came back home for a few days and then went to Colorado on a camping trip with the whole freaking crazy crew and then some! Mom, Dad, Mikka,Steven,Jordan,Daniel,Me, Bradley,Cheyenne, and Bob(1st foster child) all went to Colorado! It was a long painful drive to the campsite, 11 1/2 hours! But I was kept busy, I finished reading the new Harry Potter book on the drive. Good read! The ending is totally unexpected! Anyway we get to Pueblo and its hot as the furnaces of hell, 105 degrees, when our trailer tire blows out on the highway! Luckily there was a town 11miles away and the boys took Jordan's jeep to go get another tire. So the tire got fixed and we were on the road again 2 hours behind schedule! Not fun. We finally get to our campsite and it is beautiful! Really couldn't have got a better spot! After hours on the road, we hit the sack. But it wasn't the relaxing deep sleep I desired so much. Noooooo.... Cheyenne brought this little paper thin sleeping bag that you use to go to a sleep over in. Mom didn't want Cheyenne freezing so she convinced me to share my sleeping bag with her. I swear I should have slipped her some muscle relaxers before she went to bed every night! Holy crap! The next day we went hiking, which was a lot fun, and we looked for rocks because Dad is a rock freak. That night we all go to bed, Cheyenne and I have to share an itty-bitty tent with Mikka, a few boys sleep in a big tent, a few sleep outside, and mom and dad have their own luxury tent with a a blow up mattress! Now tell me thats not messed up! Some time during the night Mikka gets up goes to the bathroom(right next to the tent, ewww!) and forgets to shut the door. And just my luck, it rains! I wake up and the front of our tent has a puddle of water, S***! I get the water out, zip up the tent, turn around to go to sleep, and I realize the overwhelmingly putrid odor... I think to myself, "Self, is that skunk spray" Self says, "No you dummy thats pee!" It was soooo bad, I started to gag! It was in the middle of the night and pouring down rain, I couldn't escape! Pretty soon Cheyenne wakes and asks me what that bad smell is, I point to Mikka and we both bury our faces in our pillows desperatley trying to evade the god awful smell and get a little more sleep. Finally dawn comes and the rain has slowed to a drizzle, so Cheyenne and I make our grand escape to Jordans jeep where we hide from the rain and Mikka. Needless to stay Cheyenne and I never sleep in the tent with her again! We have another few great days of hiking and fishing and even swimming in the river! That river is SO COLD!!!! All of the kids except Mikka got in and swam. BRRRRR!!!! I almost forgot to mention, Bradely,Jordan,and Dad all climbed to 14,000 feet! Good for them! Daniel and I almost got to the summit of the mountain but we had some pretty gnarly blood blisters that got in the way. Overall I had an awesome time, it would have been even better if people kept up their hygiene as well as I did. Me, I don't care if I am camping I will always find the time to put on some deodorant, run a brush through my hair, and brush my teeth! We got back from Colorado at about 3:30 last Saturday, and the first thing I did was take a shower. It was great! I stayed the night with Aunt Linda the other night when my parents went out for my mom's birthday. Happy B-day Mama! She got a new car for a present, a silver Dodge Neon! It s really nice, Steven flipped out when he found out that Mom got a Dodge! lol! He's a freaking riot! Today Jordan and I have been at home while mom and dad are out looking for trailers. Of course he had to do something stupid, its in his nature. He took one of those hard as rock apples and fast pitched it right into my lip! OWW! So now I have a nice HUGE fat lip to take to band practice tomorrow! Yea how about that for sibling love! I swear he is adopted.... Well thats all I got! Love much!

Long time no see.....

2005-07-01T20:00:00.000-07:00

Yes I've been a bit of a recluse lately.....But I've gotten out of the house a few times to swim, see family, and such, no outrageous tales or adventures to fill you in on. And its been about a month since my last post! My how time flies, crazy eh?I went to D.C for a week, had the time of my life! Its really an incredible place to be... Such a melting pot of cultures, it was so cool! There was so much to see... What we managed to see: National Archives, Jefferson Memorial, Lincoln Memorial, FDR Memorial, Vietnam Memorial, White House, Capitol Building, Aerospace Museum, Natural History Museum... Now my fingers hurt... But I'll continue..... I place 10th out of about 100 people! WOOHOO!!! I tried my best and I'm satisfied with what I got! Mkay, that about wraps it up!

Off to D.C tomorrow!

2005-06-09T17:23:00.000-07:00

Just one more day, then we hit the road and get the hell out of Kansas! I'm psyched out and ready to go. I got my permit yesterday so I'll be able to drive a little bit along the way... Mom got home at 3 in the morning after her PLANE ALMOST CRASHED!!! No joke, the plane was trying to land at the Wichita airport and the storms were so severe that the plane almost fell out of the damn sky! But she returned safe and sound but quite tired. Everyone's been packing to leave.... Dominic and Steven are going to Grandma Bree's, and Mikka is going to Maxine's house, and you should know by now where the remainder will be going. Oh, and a little bit of unfortunate news.... Peggie Potts who is the closest living relative of Nellie Bly won't be able to come and see me perform. She has a great-granddaughter graduating in St. Louis that she has to go to. Damn it! Oh well, I'll still mention that I found and spoke to Peggie to the judges. Well, that's about it... Luv lots!

Friday! The most anticipated day of the week....

2005-06-03T00:07:00.000-07:00

Truly, Friday is the most anticipated day of the week. Aunty Jules finally got to leave her boring-as-hell job to get a new postition today, Kayla is done babysiting an infant and a 7 year old for some lady in hutch, I'm done babysiting the 3 kids (I've had to stay at the house with them for the last 4days), and the Randall Clan is coming home! Speaking of the Randall Clan, Jules posted a newspaper article about me and my Nellie Bly project on her site, how thoughtful! I'm counting the days until we go to D.C, a week! Thats all thats left! Im sooo excited! Well tonight I'm either going to go see Lords of Dogtown at the movies or stay the night at Grandma's, or both. Catch ya later

Memorial Weekend

2005-05-31T13:19:00.000-07:00

Every year we have some kind of party for Memorial Weekend and its loads of fun every time! We went to Oklahoma and hung out with the whole Thornton family at my Grandma's. It was a blast! These people are so much fun to be around, there is no drama what so ever. My Grandpa John's birthday is Memorial Day so it was also a birthday party for him. I'll be leaving for D.C in 10 days! WOOHOO! Lately I've been practicing the performance and updating my paper work. I'll get my permit sometime next week so I'll be able to drive a little bit on the trip. Well, I have nothing more to say.... Toodles!

Thank God thats over

2005-05-25T10:42:00.000-07:00

I am officially a freshman! I graduated last night from 8th grade at Reno Valley and I can't be happier. No more Mrs.Wilson, no more Ms. Long, I'll never have to go there again! Whew....... Last night I was in so many pictures it made my head spin! Natasha over here! Natasha get a pic with me! Oh, I actually smiled too! I'll try to post some pictures later. I have got a whole lot of time to kill! Well, later......

All most there!

2005-05-22T16:20:00.000-07:00

These last few weeks are crazy as usual, but that's just my life... Remembering every noteworthy event within the last few days would be impossible, so I'll just get the highlights down.

I was able to contact and have a phone conversation with Nellie Bly's closest living relative, Peggie Cochrane Potts who is like 80 yrs old and lives in PA. Her father was actually raised by Nellie! She was great to talk to and I got a lot of useful info from her that I needed. Mainly I got information about Nellie Bly that only her family would know. But something that made my jaw just hit the floor was finding out that Peggie lives just 1 hour and 15 minutes away from D.C! Meaning she is going to come and see me perform! I just have to email her directions!

I got to see all of my mom's family at Jade's pre-graduation party in Wichita. It was a blast! I was finally able to see my cousin Jaque, who has detached herself from her boyfriend long enough to see the family. Jaque is 5 months pregnant and going to have a baby boy, she's doing fairly well. Her boyfriend has a job and she'll be living with him.

Teachers are being Nazis but I only have to put up with them for 2 more days! Graduation is on the 24th at 7 and I can barely wait! Well if anything else happened I can't remember. At 5 I'm going with my brother to Grandma Bree's house to watch a movie and eat supper. So, I'm off like a prom dress! Later!

GIRL ON THE EDGE!!!

2005-05-08T18:00:00.000-07:00

When someone has had a shitty day my Aunt Julie declares it a "waste of hair spray and makeup". Well my last 2 weeks have been a waste of hair and make up! I have shitty days now and then like everyone does, but this is above and freaking beyond the normal. And unfortunately I don't see an end in sight.... Where to begin..... Let's start with Kayla. I never spend any time with Kayla anymore because her mom is being the Almighty Megabitch or she's always with her damn boyfriend. I can handle a week or two or even 3, I'm not clingy or anything. But being put on the back burner for almost 2 months is a little much! Then there's preparing for Nationals in D.C, I have a freaking to-do list thats a page long! I can't spend too much time on that or I'll have an anxiety attack. Now, huge end of the year projects, I have one in every freaking class! So much to do. Here, lets give a picture of life at home shall we..... Mom, Dad, Jordan, Mikka, Dominick, Steven Daniel, and myself. All under one freaking roof! Dominick, Mikka's real brother, just came on Friday and will stay everyweek until school is out. But I wasn't aware of this! No........ Just imagine living with now 4 treatment level kids! Daniel is treatment level but he shouldnt be. Lets move on to my boyfriend . He has got himself in an assload of trouble and may get himself sent to a boys home ( thats what he thinks, I think he's just paraniod. I don't think he'll go anywhere) I'm on the freaking edge. And when I'm on the edge, its not good for other people either..... My explosive anger that I have unfortunately inherited from my father makes sure of that. I wish I could just relax, becuase I don't like being mad and I don't like people thinking of me as this big bitch.... But if I just said "screw this, I don't give a shit anymore", then that most likely wouldn't turn out well. I have done I good job today at keeping my piss-mode away from Mom. I made sure she had a hassle-free good day, which came at my expense. But that doesn't matter, if I could trade every last bit of sanity I had to make her day easier, I'd do it. In my me- bitching-at-the-world-mode I forgot to wish everyone a happy mothers day. Well Happy Mother's Day!

May 4th

2005-05-04T19:40:00.000-07:00

I have counted and it is only 14 days until I graduate from jr. high! I can't wait to never see Ms. Long again..... Today- I went to my first hour, Tech Lab, and got assigned to be in a station with the most annoying person on the face of the Earth. He's like a 7th grade male version of Mikka, his name is Alan Fox Mason III. After two minutes I knew the kid's whole life story.... AHHHH...... If I don't have a psychotic fit before the end of this station I'll be lucky. The rest of the day was boring and gay(no offense, I love gay people) as usual. I had quiz bowl practice (trivia team) , and then I went with my mom to the library to go look at newspaper articles that Nellie Bly wrote on Microfish. We got a lot done and found a lot of useful information, but I stand by my statement, I hate microfish! Well supper's ready so I'll close this with telling everyone I will be getting braces tomorrow. eeeekkkkk....... Lov much,
Natasha

Happy May 2nd!

2005-05-02T19:12:00.000-07:00

Well hello. My mind has been in an absoulute scramble lately, so bear with me! This weekend.......Oh yea!

Friday my friend Tasha stayed the night with me and the entire family went to see The Hitchhiker's Guide to The Galaxy. It was the funniest movie ever, I loved it! If you like British humor you'll love this! My very favorite character in this movie is a depressed robot named Marvin. He is awesome!

On Saturday I got the impulse to stay the night with my great-grandmother. I have drawn the conclusion that I will stay with her much more often, at 86 yrs old she is a lot of fun to be around! Her favorite swear is, "Ju-das Priest". Ya have to hear her say it, I love it! I went to church on sunday, went home, and did homework.

Sunday night I watched Harold and Kumar Go To Whitecastle and laughed my ass off!

This morning I slept 30min too late, got to school, hated it, got loads of work dumped on my shoulders, and came home to do yardwork...... Man do I miss the weekends......

The night mare has ended!

2005-04-28T18:53:00.000-07:00

We finally managed to get our computer working! So I can post again! Its been about a month since I've posted, I'll give you the summary.....

I went to my friend Lindsay's 16th birthday party and had a blast, we didn't sleep until about 5:30. I took 2nd place at State History Day competition, so I go to Washington D.C to perform at national level.
School is freaking crazy as ever, I hate the place more and more.....
I got my spacers on my teeth today, and I get braces next week.

There is probably much more to tell but I can't remember what. Just wait untill tomorrow, something crazy will happen and I will be here to report it. Luv much,

NATASHA

2005-04-02T18:20:00.000-08:00

Yes, I am a complete tar-tar.... I can't even figure out how to post pictures . Thats soooo pathetic. Pretty much all I can do on a computer is type. Would someone please show this technilogically retarded person to upload pictures. Please.....

Saturday

2005-04-02T17:40:00.000-08:00

I woke up this morning to my mother saying ," Get up, we're gonna buy a 4 wheeler!"
Huh? I was thinking she must be pulling an April Fools joke on me or something, but we left for town and went to 3 different places looking for 4 wheelers. We found this one, its yellow, Suzuki, fuel injection, 4 wheel drive, goes about 50mph, is great for trail riding, and can be used for work around the farm. I think we're getting it! We buzzed around town after that and did errands then came home and started spring cleaning. I turned my tv on while I was cleaning and heard that the Pope finally died. No big surprise there... Otherwise this was a normal Saturday comprising of just chillin out. I love the weekends! I hope yours is great! Luv much

Really..... Can it get any crazier?!

2005-04-01T18:33:00.000-08:00

Crazy is the only word that comes to mind when I think of my life and the lives of the people around me. Yes, we are truly consumed by insanity. But try not to suffer from insanity, enjoy every minute of it! I went to school today and rekindled my absoulute hate for the place. We have new policies, rules have been changed, and I count the days till I get outta that place. No, really, I do. 38 more days. Nobody seems to put their insanity into a positive way anymore. Daniel I have crowned King Retard. If you don't know my foster brother, he has a knack for not thinking things through. He takes young children on joyrides with Dad's truck, hacks into computers, sends teachers emails regarding to how "they should smoke pot to ease up", can't get home on time, fails his classes, and totally disregards everyone. He is a great kid, he is just way too impulsive and doesn't think about things. He does all this despite the fact that he has a juvenile you-screwed-up-and-we're-trying-to-figure-out-what-to-do-with-you hearing. Well I hope things work out for him. Have a nice weekend!

Hello eveyone!

2005-03-31T18:24:00.000-08:00

I am feeling MUCH better today! But first I must share my mortifying experience at the doctor's office. I went to see the doctor a few days ago because my throat was swollen so large I was beginning to think it would take over my head. I really should have taken pictures and posted them.... It was crazy.... Anyway, I get into the room and the nurse does the normal take your bloodpressure and pulse(you know the drill), then the doctor gives me a gown and says, "I need for you to undress." I'm like, "WTF?!?!?! There's no way in hell I'm taking my clothes off!" You see, I didn't think this was going to happen, so before I left home I didn't bother to put any underwear on! Finally my mother convinced me that it was ok and I reluctantly changed into that retarded little gown. So I lay down on the table while this old man is poking and prodding all over my body, talk about the heeby-jeebies! He says he needs to check some internal organ, which I don't know where is, so I'm like whatever.... And downstairs he goes! OMG!!! Red flag! Red flag! Creepy old guy touching me! EWWWWW!!! I go stiff as a board and look desperately at my mother who just shrugs. THANKS MOM! Finally he leaves, I get dressed and he comes back with this look on his face like he is going to share some really bad news with me. I note the body language and being the recently-violated smartass that I am say, "So am I going to keel over and die or what?" He's like "No, but we'll give you some more of the medication you've been taking and something for the congestion. That should reduce the swelling. But other than the swelling, you're doing fine." FINE! I'm doing fine, but you have to get me stark naked and poke me? Last time I checked thats not what you do to people who are "fine"! We leave(thank God!, grab some movies, and go home. I've been at home reading and resting, as I've been doing for the last two weeks, and I'm going to school tomorrow.... I absolutely hate school, but that's where my friends tend to be Mon- Fri. Well, I should go now. Have a lovely day!

Humph.....

2005-03-29T00:57:00.000-08:00

Yep, still at home, sick and miserable as usual. Its useless to b**** about how I feel because I'll have mono for at least another week or so. I am at home not doing much of anything except dreaming about my re-entrance into society of course. What I can actually do to make the time pass is limited, with me having no energy and dad being asleep, there isn't much. I have been fingering through the pages of that monstrous biography of Nellie Bly (625pgs!) trying to get some motivation to actually read a bit. Oh! How was everyone's Easter? Good I hope.... I managed to drag myself out of bed to go to Grandma's church program. It was lovely, as usual. I don't have too much to say really. I do have a question for anyone who knows anything about computers- Why is it that when I publish a new post, it doesn't show up on my homepage, but according to the comments left by people, they can see the posts? The only time I can see what I write is when I make a new post or go to Edit Posts. ARRGGGG!!!! I hate technology sometimes. Well tata for now.....

Happy Easter!!!

2005-03-27T17:30:00.000-08:00

I hope everyone had a lovely day! The sun was shining here in Nowhere, Kansas and Mum and Dad had all of the children go outside and search for eggs. I'm going into highschool next year and I still hunt for Easter eggs.... Kind of pathetic, but hey it was kind of fun. We each had 2 eggs of our designated color that we had to find which held our allowance ($5) , and a lottery ticket. There was also one sparkly yellow egg that held a $10 bill. And would you guess the person who hasn't moved from the house in a week and a half found it! Yep, I found it, so now I have $70. How did I get that much? I have been sick for nearly two weeks and couldn't shop. I think I'll go to school tomorrow. But right now I have to go to Hutch for my grandmother's church thing. Catch ya later

Still alive....

2005-03-26T17:22:00.000-08:00

Well, after an entire week of being miserable with a fever and sore throat, mom finally took me to the doctor. During our 3 day stay at Grandma's in Oklahoma I was feeling even worse, so mom gave up and we went home to see Dr. Ciskey. I thought I had strep but turns out I have mono. WTF?! I'm just like whatever, give me some drugs so I can just get out of here. I counted it all up and I'm taking 48 pills (not including the multi-vitamins he told me take)42 of those are stereroids. Stereroids? For mono? Whatever... I am glad to say I am feeling a bit better, but I'm not allowed to do anything sports related for a month!!! I'll close this blog with a Happy Easter wish to everyone!
Happy Easter!!!

*groan

2005-03-22T16:00:00.000-08:00

I don't know what the hell is wrong with my computer. I can write my posts and publish them but they won't display, all that shows is Gwen's pic & "Just a Girl". I can see the comments though, so people can still read my blog, good. Time to play catch up-

Thursday and Friday I had a temp that kept going any where from 98-102, Grandma is right, I made myself sick from all the stress. Damn me.

I was feeling better Saturday morning so I went to Mrs. McCormick's funeral at St. Theresas', which was truly heart wrenching... Kayla and I walked in and there wasn't a free seat we could see, but after a few minutes we were lead by the funeral director to sit in the 2nd row. It was a beautiful service that had everyone in tears.

Sunday-Temp held strong and kept me miserable.

Today-I didn't have a fever when I woke up, but 2 hours later I was back to 100. Going to Oklahome to see my Grandma tomorrow w/ everyone. God help me. 4 hrs in a car with Mikka is going to send me over the edge. Have a good day!

a week of pure hell

2005-03-17T18:17:00.000-08:00

I haven't posted in a while. Sorry.I've had friends fighting, school work, history day, and crazy people in my house to attend to. But that's not important by any means.I don't think I have ever mentioned her, but one of my my teachers,Mrs.McCormick, was diagnosed with cancer a year ago and has went through kemo and everything.About 3 wks ago she stopped coming to school because she didn't have any energy to spare, so we're stuck with this retarded sub, Mrs. Barlow. I would come into class and go to my disignated station, Personal Finance, where my partner and I would sit clueless on how to compound interest and such. We would complain everyday how we wished Mrs. McCormick. About 2wks ago Mrs. McCormick was admitted to the hospital, and I'm like,"They told us she wouldn't come back for the rest of the year, so she'll probably just stay in the hospital for a while and rest." Yesterday, at about 2:20, we heard over the intercom," All students and faculty report to the cafeteria." I say, "Great they're going to rip us for detentions and tardies." God I wish I was right.... Our counsler tells us "You all know Mrs. McCormick had surgery yesterday to remove a tumor. Last night she was able to move her arms,legs, and she could talk fine. But this morning, her brain started to swell, putting pressure on her brain stem, and she died about an hour ago." That hit me like a bullet. "It is also her oldest son Jake's 18 birthday. We need everyone to pull together through this time." We were finally dismissed and the whole school was in tears, there wasn't a dry eye in the place. Today everyone was walking like zombies and crying periodically. I'm crying as I type. I went home at noon today. I feel horrible and I can't stand to go to school knowing that she'll never be back. Going in to class and seeing Mrs. Barlow there is torture even though she's been our sub for 3wks. There are pictures of her all over the hallways that I can't look at because they just kill me. I have given myself a migraine from the stress. I can't look at the computer anymore. Bye.

What a lovely day...

2005-03-05T00:38:00.000-08:00

The sun is shining, the sky is blue, the air is great.... and I feel like crap. My painkillers haven't kicked in, so I am experiencing cramps from hell... argg... Mom's making me clean and do laundry. She says once I'm done, I need to go excercise. Sure, whatever. Well I should be sufficiently drugged in about 25 minutes so then I can enjoy the day... Toodles!